Conversion Therapy Survivor Survey – Why Did You Quit the Ex-Gay Movement?

While researching conversion therapy, I met Jallen Rix, sexologist and author of Ex-Gay No Way.

Dr. Rix has conducted a survey of conversion therapy survivors. The answers to the questions posed in this survey are shocking and heartbreaking.

This blog post is about answers to the question:

What significant experience motivated you to quit the ex-gay movement?

Thank you, Dr. Rix, for conducting this survey and posting the results online! May this result in positive change!

The Survey of Conversion Therapy Survivors

The survey asked many questions, including this one: “What significant experience motivated you to quit the ex-gay movement?”

The survey is open to ongoing contributions, but at the time this blog post was written, 417 people had participated in the survey, and 393 people had answered this question.

Ex-Gay Movement Survivor Answers

When asked why they stopped conversion therapy, people answered:

  • 302 people said it did not make them straight
  • 202 answered that they were exhausted
  • 196 said they became too depressed to continue
  • 175 said they realized they could no longer hate themselves any longer (obviously self loathing related to sexual orientation is a primary motivator for engaging in conversion therapy)
  • 85 reported having nervous breakdowns (due to the therapy)
  • 99 said they gave up on religion (and most conversion therapy is motivated by religious pressure or a desire to “please God” by repenting of sexual attraction to those of the same sex)
  • 125 met LBGT Christians (Yay!)
  • 149 said they realized the LBGT community is not as “evil” as they had been led to believe
  • 201 answered that they realized God loved them regardless of their sexuality

Click here to read all the answers to this question on the conversion therapy survivor survey conducted by Dr. Jallen Rix and colleagues, including Peterson Toscano, ex-gay movement survivor and talented actor.

My Favorite Answer

Of course, some of these answers tear me up inside. My favorite answer, though, is the last one listed here – that 201 people realized God loved them regardless of their sexual orientation.

Why This Conversion Therapy Survey Matters to Me

I was once part of a radical religious organization. I am no longer (at this time) religious (although I am loosely spiritual.) However, I firmly believe that any God/dess/Creator of the universe worth worshiping would love each and every one of us the way we are – without requiring us to change.

I have three children, and I love each of them as he or she is. I don’t expect them to change or to earn my love. I imagine that God/dess/Divine Creator must be far more capable of loving his or her creation than I am, fallible human that I am.

It is my hope that I can spread this love and acceptance as far as it will go.

Overview of Conversion Therapy Survey

While conducting research for my books about the negative impact of conversion therapy, I met an influential man in this space – Jallen Rix, sexologist and author of Ex-Gay No Way.

Dr. Rix and his colleagues have conducted a survey of men and women who have undergone conversion therapy. The results of this survey are moving – and distressing. I’ve broken down my analysis of the results of his survey into several blog posts so you can digest the conclusions of the stories one by one. I’ve also linked to his website and the study results so you can read his original work as well.

This blog post is about:

The Survey of People Who Have Undergone Conversion Therapy

Thank you, Dr. Rix, for conducting this survey and posting the results online! May this result in positive change!

The Survey of Conversion Therapy Survivors

Dr. Rix and his colleagues conducted this survey to get answers from people who have actually endured conversion therapy. The survey asks questions that explore the following topics:

  • Why people engaged in conversion therapy
  • Why they stopped therapy
  • What they got out of it (or did not get out of it)
  • How conversion therapy affected them
  • How much therapy cost them
  • If they felt therapy was effective or delivered as promised
  • If they felt harmed by the experience, and if so, how
  • What demographics were affected by conversion therapy
  • How spirituality was linked to the experience

The survey was conducted online and the results tabulated and then published here at Beyond Ex-Gay.

You can read up about Dr. Jallen Rix here.

You can read up about his colleague, Peterson Toscano here.

The Results of the Survey

The evidence produced by the survey is that conversion therapy has harmed a good many people. The responses recorded in the survey are heart-breaking.

As you can imagine, any therapy that causes a person to try to change his or her sexual orientation is suffocating and demoralizing. This survey is a starting point for scientifically measuring the impact of such a practice.

If you’re interested in reading up on the American Psychological Association’s opinion of Sexual Orientation Change Efforts, you can download a PDF on the subject here.

Why This Conversion Therapy Survey Matters to Me

As a writer exploring the impact of conversion therapy (or any SOCE methods), I am happy to see this sort of evidence being published online.

In my opinion, the acceptance of same-sex attraction and the celebration of GBLT orientations is essential for healthy societal health. If we attack, suppress, hate upon, abuse and ridicule this significant segment of our society, we all lose. Everyone deserves to be respected and loved for who he or she is.

I am particularly interested in helping religious organizations accept GBLT people who wish to worship a deity with full confidence that they are loved and accepted – by a creator and congregation alike – without having to change a single thing.

This mission is important to me because I was once a part of a radically religious group that believed (and still does believe) that people can choose to be gay or straight, and that any sexual encounter with someone of the same sex is sinful. I no longer believe this could possibly be true of a loving deity. As such, I want to promote acceptance, especially in the religious community, as much as is possible.

Is Conversion Therapy Linked to Radical Religion?

I come from a background of radical religion. As a result, I’ve found myself drawn to stories of people who have also immersed themselves in radical religion. This interest of mine has led me into the world of religious LGBT community, and also to the topic of conversion therapy, in which gay men and women try to change or suppress their sexual orientation. This is usually done to “please God.”

My research led me to discover an expert in this field: Jallen Rix, sexologist and author of Ex-Gay No Way.

Dr. Rix is also interested in the root cause of what motivates a person to try to change something so integral and personal as sexual orientation. He was a part of the ex-gay movement, and now works as a sex therapist.

Dr. Rix has recently conducted a survey, asking people who engaged in conversion therapy why they tried to change their sexual orientation. His survey results are fascinating.

One of the main conclusions Dr. Rix made from his survey was this: most people who try to change their sexual orientation do so for religious reasons. They believe they will not be loved or accepted (by God and/or a religious community) if they do not suppress their sexuality or change from gay to straight. You can read about this here on the conclusions page of his survey results.

As I work on my books about conversion therapy, I am using information from researchers like Dr. Rix. Keep following me to discover what other experts in this field have to say on the subject.

Contact Me to Contribute

If you are an ex-gay survivor and would like to contribute to my book, please contact me! Thanks for being a part of positive change!

 

 

 

 

Conversion Therapists Still Trying to Change Sexual Orientation?

Conversion Therapists Still Trying to Change Sexual Orientation?

In 2012? You Betcha!

Think conversion therapy is a thing of the past?

Think America has finally embraced GBLT rights?

Think again.

Our country is polarizing on a lot of political issues, and gay rights is one of those topics that is dividing the country in two. On the one side, we have progressive liberals who are fighting hard to promote gay marriage and equal rights regardless of sexual orientation. On the other side we’ve got an increasingly vocal conservative and religious political base fighting to stuff the GBLT community back into the closet.

The Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC) is heading up the battle in a milestone lawsuit against JONAH (Jews Offering New Alternatives for Healing), a conversion therapy counseling group that tried to make four gay men straight through the controversial conversion therapy.

The SPLC, an equal rights organization, has put forth the trouble to identify conversion therapists across the country. Thus far they have identified over 70 conversion therapists in the country.

Conversion therapy is considered quite dangerous. It is expensive (costing up to $10,000 a year) and goes against the ruling of the (American Psychiatric Association) APA’s determination that homosexuality is not a mental illness. Most mainstream therapists agree that it is emotionally unhealthy (and even abusive) to try to change or suppress a client’s sexual orientation through therapy. Licensed therapists are required to follow the guidelines presented by the APA, which means they are not allowed to try to use therapeutic methods to try to influence a patient’s sexual orientation.

And yet conversion therapists still operate in this country. In fact, National Association for Research and Therapy of Homosexuality (NARTH) has filed a lawsuit against the State of California, trying to reverse the state’s groundbreaking ban on conversion therapy for minors. NARTH insists they are providing a much-needed service to people who have “unwanted homosexual” urges or orientations.

Believe it or not, conversion therapy is legal, even for minors (we’re talking kids as young as three years old, folks) in every state in the country except California. Not only are adults choosing to endure emotional abuse in the guise of helpful therapy, but children are also being subjected, often against their will, to this incredibly dangerous and harmful practice.

Why This Matters to Me:

As a writer who believes in getting the truth out there and supporting equal rights any way I can, I will be updating news about conversion therapy here on my site, providing links to helpful resources.

Please check in from time to time to learn about progress in the gay rights battle as I research for my upcoming books. I’ll be sharing the information I learn here.